terça-feira, 18 de junho de 2019

Earth of Darkness
Joseph Conrad

About the captivated nigger’s they (the Central Station personnel) were carrying in an affluent of the Congo River

“For the rest, the only thing to eat - though it didn’t look eatable in the least - I saw in their possession was a few lumps of some stuff like half-cooked dough, of a dirty lavender colour, they kept wrapped in leaves, and now and then swallowed a pieceof, but so small that it seemed done more for the looks of the thing than for any serious purpose of sustenance. Why in the name of all the gnawing devils of hunger they didn’t go for us—they were thirty to five—and have a good tuck in for once, amazes me now when I think of it. They were big powerful men, with not much capacity to weigh the consequences, with courage, with strength, even  yet,  though  their  skins  were  no  longer  glossy  and  their muscles no longer hard. And I saw that something restraining, one of those human secrets that baffle probability, had come into play there. I looked at them with a swift quickening of interest - not because it occurred to me I might be eaten by them before very long, though I own to you that just then I perceived—in a new light, as it were-how unwholesome the pilgrims looked, and I hoped, yes, I positively hoped, that my aspect was not so—what shall I say?—so—unappetizing: a touch of fantastic vanity which fitted well with the dream-sensation that pervaded all my days at that time. Perhaps I had a little fever too. One can’t live with one’s finger  everlastingly on one’s pulse. I had often ‘a little fever,’ or a little touch of other things—the playful paw-strokes of the wilderness, the preliminary trifling before the more serious onslaught which came in due course. Yes; I looked at them as you would on any human being, with a curiosity of their impulses, motives, capacities, weaknesses, when brought to the test of an inexorable physical necessity. Restraint! What possible restraint? Was it superstition, disgust, patience, fear - or some kind of primitive honour? No fear can stand up to hunger, no patience can wear it out, disgust simply does not exist where hunger is; and as to superstition, beliefs, and what you may call principles, they are less than chaff in a breeze.
Don’t you know the devilry of lingering starvation, its exasperating torment, its black thoughts, its somber and brooding ferocity? Well, I do. It takes a man all his inborn strength to fight hunger properly. It’s really easier to face bereavement, dishonour, and the perdition of one’s soul - than this kind of prolonged hunger. Sad, but true. And these chaps too had no earthly reason for any kind of scruple. Restraint! I would just as soon have expected restraint from a hyena prowling amongst the corpses of a battlefield. But there was the fact facing me - the fact dazzling, to be seen, like the foam on the depths of the sea, like a ripple on an unfathomable enigma, a  mystery  greater—when  I  thought  of  it—than  the  curious, inexplicable note of desperate grief in this savage clamor that had swept by us on the riverbank, behind the blind whiteness of the  fog.”

The pilgrims are not missionaries. They are called pilgrims, it seems, because they carry long staves or poles. They are agents, employed at the Central Station, and their only desire is to get a job at a trading station: they do nothing, they only want ivory to make money, they hate each other, and treat the natives badly.

Other quotes:

The conquest of the earth, which mostly means the taking it away from those who have a different complexion or slightly flatter noses than ourselves, is not a pretty thing when you look into it too much.
It is impossible to convey the life-sensation of any given epoch of one’s existence — that which makes its truth, its meaning — its subtle and penetrating essence. It is impossible. We live, as we dream — alone…
I don’t like work — no man does — but I like what is in work — the chance to find yourself. Your own reality — for yourself, not for others — what no other man can ever know.
We could not understand because we were too far and could not remember, because we were travelling in the night of first ages, of those ages that are gone, leaving hardly a sign — and no memories.
I have wrestled with death. It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine. It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot, with nothing around, without spectators, without clamor, without glory, without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat, in a sickly atmosphere of tepid skepticism, without much belief in your own right, and still less in that of your adversary. If such is the form of ultimate wisdom, then life is a greater riddle than some of us think it to be.

Só as descobrimos no passado ano. Com grande afluência de forasteiros, já acontecem à uma década.
O espírito comunitário na sua montagem e suporte é digno de especial louvor. Aqui louva-se o "Senhor Divino Espírito Santo" e envolvem-se, em espírito fraternal, todos os locais e forasteiros na partilha daquilo que de melhor se tem. 

É possível que a ideia do "3º Império", anunciado na origem deste culto, não esteja no consciente dos organizadores nem da maioria dos participantes, mas a partilha feita dos recursos locais toca a sensibilidade de qualquer um.

Este ano a chuva não ajudou. Desencorajou muitos a ir e os que foram tinham de procurar abrigo para que o copo de vinho não se enchesse de forma natural. 


As sopas por aqui são inéditas em Festas destas. Uma divinal sopa "de Pedra" e um farto cozido, com carne de vaca e galinha, chouriço, inhame, batata e muito mais. Sem esquecer o arroz-doce e a massa sovada - e animação musical no fim para ajudar a digestão.


Não é demais repetir o louvor ao Senhor Divino Espírito Santo e aos Organizadores desta celebração. Numa freguesia de 400 pessoas só um fortíssimo espírito comunitário permite uma realização destas.